september 2025
note 2 self: add cecil b demented + pavements + universal language
LOVED THIS ONE!!! swearing off of love and then falling head over heels for the first woman u meet... i think we've all been there. kind of obsessed with dennis tbh. i honestly don't have the words to explain why i love this movie and but i think that's for the best. i feel like hal hartley movies are best watched alone in a silent room.
my life feels like the most boring hal hartley movie in the world right now. so i figured it was time for a hartley marathon. i think i would've liked this one more if i cared at all about christianity but like wutever. i still really liked this. pj harvey was so beautiful. yo la tengo cameo. very much the vibe i was seeking out so i don't really have any complaints.
august 2025
ok guys we are so back this month i swear
DUDE OH MY GOD. this was so beautiful. such a quiet and slow film. and you know i love that shit! young radha reminded me so much of my younger self it kind of scared me. this movie reminded me a lot of all we imagine as light (2024) and cake (2018), which are two REALLY GREAT MOVIES. BEAUTIFUL ERA FOR SOUTH ASIAN CINEMA! i don't have too much to say cuz i think everyone just needs to go watch this. idk where ur gonna find it tho i saw it at a film festival screening #sorry
VERY COMPLICATED FEELINGS ABOUT THIS ONE. almost every character was extremely pretentious and deeply insufferable as a way of masking the fact that at their cores they're directionless losers who don't know how to handle change. they were also all lowkey incels... like it's really not that hard to see women as people i don't understand why everyone struggles with this so much. that being said i unfortunately found this extremely relatable when they weren't being the worst. okay and sometimes when they were being the worst... what can i say i'm not perfect! i, too, am a directionless loser who doesn't know how to handle change. that's what being 20 is all about! even though i hated most of the characters i still found myself enjoying a decent amount of this movie. i don't really know what else i can say about this because i still don't really know how i feel. and i think that's okay.
love when fictional characters r referred to as an abbreviation for something stupid. FH short for "fuckhead" is sooooo funny to me. and leave it to billy crudup to play a gorgeous fuckhead. i really love movies about drugs but i have a horrible fear of needles so this was hard for me lol. anyways i thought this was pretty good i just have seen too many drug movies so my standards r really high lol. i think it's cool to see a movie about an addict that isn't explicitly about addiction. nonlinear narratives + optimistically soul crushing films r also two of my favorite things so i'm honestly surprised i didn't fw this more. i think i would've liked this more if i watched this a year or two ago though.
been meaning to watch for months. LOVED THIS. i believe in love! i mean there's gotta be something for people to cling to besides tv right? honestly changed my life but like most movies of this genre it's been 2 weeks and i remember very little. but i think that's okay. i'll be rewatching soon.
watched this for logan lerman (duh). i liked this but also i was just having a really good day when i watched this so that might be why lol. very funny but also if i have to watch one more rom-com that's meant to be a commentary on modern dating i might have to end it all. like truly i've seen enough. this gets points cuz the main character is insane. love when women are crazy.
july 2025
LATE AGAIN I KNOW @_@ ok let me attempt to catch up
mildly embarassing to admit but honestly i think this movie was only in my watchlist cuz of my justin long phase. tbh i liked this i think it was very funny but honestly nothing makes me wish i was a boy more than seeing dudes be really into sci-fi so i had some complicated feelings 2 deal with after watching lol
watched with bobba. not much to say tbh it was exactly what i expected from a pokemon movie lol. i felt like i should put this here tho cuz i didn't do much in july....
june 2025
omg ok im writing this in july sorry but i did watch/play all these in june i swear... also these will be so brief cuz my memory is sooooo bad sorryyyyyy
PREDICTABLE I KNOWWWWWW
i honestly have a hard time telling castlevania games apart gameplay-wise lol but like i really like all of them so i dont care too much. i also usually have a hard time telling the graphics apart btwn different games but omg the colors were so bright and beautiful this was awesome. i love juste belmont and i thought the a and b castle situation was cool. and like yeah i know the alternate castle thing is predictable. i don't care that it's predictable. it's castlevania that's the point. i started playing circle of the moon as soon as i finished this lol!
this changed my life actually. also oh my god dude im in love with winona ryder. but like who isnt. anyways! been loving jim jarmusch movies lately. well... just this and broken flowers... but still... they feel so... real. love love love when a movie is 90% dialogue. i love words and i love people.
omg this made me soooo happy. loved this! weirdly relatable #pakistani
THIS WAS BEAUTIFUL... OH MY GOD... i honestly dont know what else to say. i want to rewatch this immediately actually. i think you just need to watch this. alone in a dark room. and maybe turn your phone off.
this was cute!! u guys know i love a cameron crowe movie! surprisingly good for a boy romcom. so long though... this should've been like 90 minutes. 110 even. sorry!
may 2025
GOOD NEWS GUYS I WATCH AND PLAY THINGS THIS MONTH! spoiler alert it's all castlevania though #predictable #notsorry
it only took like 3 years but i finally beat aria of sorrow! i'm gonna be honest guys i didnt get the ending i wanted but i can't do this again dude i'm so tired. I LOVED THIS GAME THOUGH!!!! i'm kind of back in a crazy castlevania phase cuz ive been watching nocturne and i've got belmonts on my mind....
LOL OK SO... i just watched the good ending on youtube and i just realized i definitely beat this game in high school i just completely forgot everything about it oops lol! anyways... this was a really cool castlevania game! the story was way different from the other ones i've played which is cool because honestly i was worried i was gonna get sick of castlevania after this one. the moment i beat this game i opened up harmony of dissonance. i fear i'll never get sick of alucard dearest!
soooo annika and i watched this entire show in two sittings... oops! i think this might be the first new show ive watched in college omg. i really liked this tbh. although i do think it could've been more emotionally volatile. but whatever. i love symphony of the night era alucard he's just so gorgeous. honestly was fully convinced thomas jefferson was gonna be in this show and i was a little disappointed that he wasn't. i liked the last show a lot... well at least i liked whatever trevor and sypha were up to... but i still haven't gotten around 2 playing dracula's curse so trevor was kind of new to me. it's fun 2 watch a show about ur smash main lol. also i think this show lowkey spoiled harmony of dissonance for me?? curse you juste belmont....
oh my god.
genuinely still not sure how i feel about this? love and hate this. blind date from hell at a coffee shop called "asylum" and the guy is kind of the worst and the girl is extremely strange and deeply unwell and they both just talk and talk and talk forever. unfortunately the first 20ish minutes of this were so sickeningly familiar (which is why i have such mixed feelings about this). i don't think that i am similar to jasmine at all but brief moments of this movie are so relatable it makes me feel kind of ill. i don't think i can hate this movie though. it's kind of exactly what i was looking for...
this kind of feels like a hal hartley movie except there is so much dialogue. there's also a brief stephen malkmus cameo. the more i think about this the more i think this movie is kind of perfect actually. i'm gonna go add half a star to my letterboxd review rn. i don't think i would recommend this to 95% of people though.
april 2025
ok honestly this month i kind of exclusively rewatched movies ive already seen a million times so...
i did play one new game though! this was soooooo cute. i def wanna play thru this again at some point but i'm kinda busy right now and i didn't wanna wait to put this up here cuz who knows how long it'll be before i decide its time to 100% this lol. anyways we all know by now that i love my top-down 2d rpgs, and this was one of the better ones ive played!!! story was adorable and im #inspired.
ok ummm i have a few things i could add but i just haven't finished playing/watching/reading them yet so i want to wait.... sorry my little angels! more of a music month for me i fear! maybe go look at my muzik page if ur dying for more of my thoughts on things lol
march 2025
ok so i started this game months ago and i finally got around to finishing it the other day. i wasn't the biggest fan at first but it really won me over by the end. tbh i do have a soft spot for this type of 2d indie game but i've played so many of them that by this point i think i'm able to tell which ones are actually good. and this one is actually good! the gameplay is pretty simple and can be kinda boring at times but frankly if that's what you're concerned about you need to pick a different genre of game...
can u tell im sick of AAA games lol
don't get me wrong i love skyrim and the like but omg i need a break from 3d open world rpgs! i've always preferred short + simple indie games tbh. they feel so much more personal, and i've always been the type to think of video games as art. i try to hide it but i can get really pretentious about this...
anyways, ive been playing a bunch of random itch.io games lately and
the dark queen of mortholme is one of my new favorites! luv the graphics + the music is so good + i love games with multiple endings so this is kinda perfect 4 me.
another random itch.io game. i know i literally just said this about the last game but
ritual bound is a new fav! im not super into horror games but i <3 when normal games have a creepy vibe. this was kinda inscryption-esque in that sense. this was such a fun little puzzle game. will definitely be checking out other games by this dev soon!
another itch.io game. short and sweet! im a sucker for this style of graphics
the chumscrubber (2005)... such a strange movie... with such a strange name (which is never fully explained). main guy looks like if tom holland was jesse eisenberg. i don't even know what to say like i think you just need to watch this to understand. this really is heathers for boys... one of those movies that i think would have been life changing to me at one point but i've seen so many good movies that actually accomplished whatever this was trying to do... i'm not gonna lie though i enjoyed it lol
LOVEDDDD THIS ONEEEE. miranda july movies always find me at the perfect time. i've been meaning to watch this since i watched me and you and everyone we know (2005) but i didn't get around to it until yesterday. i'm glad i waited! old dolio's relationship with her parents reminded me a lot of lady bird but i wasn't blinded with rage at how awful the main character was this time so i could actually appreciate it, which i thought was pretty cool
i also watched box of moonlight (1996) yesterday but i wasn't very invested and i don't have much to say... so...
DUDE. i finished this game in two sittings because i couldn't bring myself to stop playing. this kind of changed my life. night in the woods kinda felt like a WAY less abstract version of gris which i think is really cool. especially the dream scenes, which r also very reminiscent of my favorite parts of spiritfarer! this just reminds me of so many games that changed my life when i was 15 but now the main character is also a 20 year old loser with no purpose and honestly it freaked me out really bad how much i related to mae. i think that if i played this when i was younger it would be one of my favorite games of all time, but i'm happy i played it now instead. this game found me when it was meant to! for the past 5 years i've been saying that my favorite genre of video game is metroidvanias abt severely depressed girls. i dont really know how i missed night in the woods for all those years because this, along with celeste, spiritfarer, and gris, are like... the quintessential depressed girl 2d platformers.
